AUTHOR: Kat and Kev TITLE: Baby Love DATE: 9/19/2007 07:59:00 PM ----- BODY:

When you are pregnant and waiting expectantly for the baby to arrive, everyone tells you how much you are going to love this new little person. For me, I always found this concept to be quite an odd one. Maybe not odd, but unfamiliar. How can you love someone you haven't met? Then they arrive and you do love them and its wonderful. In the last few weeks, I have noticed a slight change in my feelings for Ellis. I have loved him this entire time, of course. However, lately there is something more personal about this love. I love him, as a tiny little being with his little personality, his sense of humour, his love of feet and sippy cups, they way he chews on anything he can fit in his mouth, how he REFUSES to sit still. I noticed this change one day when he was sitting with his daddy and all of the sudden he went red and started howling with big tears and sobs. Up until that moment, I had always quieted his cries and soothed him but it may have been ever so slightly more mechanical. More about bringing him back down to neutral and less empathetic. This time, however, it was because of him. I didn't want Ellis to be hurt or upset. I honestly can't WAIT for him to get up and play in te mornings. When Kevin takes him for even a few hours, I miss him. He is just so darn lovely to be around. ::Gush:: Ok enough soppy crap, I am exhausted. That bloody child still isn't sleeping. However, I think that it may be that he is smelling me and wanting lots of midnight snacks. I have been downstairs since 1am and he hasn't stirred. Its 4:19am now. If only I could've slept this whole time. We are off to Mull this weekend. Ellis will be getting his first ferry ride and to see the sea. As an aside to anyone trying to contact me via MySpace...I haven't been able to get into my account for months. There is something wrong with it and it says I am logged on, but can't get through to see anything. I have emailed them, but please know I am not ignoring you!!!! Apparently, I have been hacked into...why they'd pick the most boring person alive, I don't know. However, hackers if you are reading this, could you please let me know. I am very interested.

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