AUTHOR: Kat and Kev TITLE: Sent from Heaven, but with a Price Tag DATE: 6/12/2007 11:04:00 AM ----- BODY:
After days of screaming, I finally broke down. I went out and bought a baby swing. See Ellis cries a lot!! So much so that a mother in my group said to her son, "Oh, I hope you don't learn any lessons from Ellis," and acting shocked when I said that I would try and go to a baby-friendly movie with Ellis. Argh.... Anyway, this morning in a fit of screaming-fuelled desperation, I stuck the grump in a sling and went into town in search of a solution. I returned with said swing and some infacol. Its now 8:15pm and we've only had outright crying for about 20 minutes since lunchtime. However, I can't look at the swing without feeling guilty. First, the expense. It wasn't cheap and I was too distraught to have the patience to obsessively search out the best deal. Secondly, it feels lazy, like I can't be bothered to soothe my own baby. Finally, I do feel a bit like I've been replaced by this mechanical mother. Now the two mothers that I love most in the world (my own and my MIL)say that I am being too hard on myself and they wold know, having raised seven children between them. However, I think that this is a lesson I have to learn myself. I will hopefully post a picture tomorrow, though we are now beginning our week from hell--Immunisations on Wednesday, US Consulate on Thursday, Film (maybe) on Friday and the Big Tent Festival on Saturday. Phew! I am tired just thinking about it.
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